🩺 Scrub In: The Motivated Med Life

In her 2015 hit “Good as Hell,” Lizzo famously said:
“I just took a DNA test, turns out I’m 100% that bitch, even when I’m crying crazy.”

I thought about those lyrics as I took a break to reflect on the many Step 1 practice sets and NBMEs I’ve worked through in preparation for retaking the exam. While Lizzo found solace in the certainty of her identity, I found myself struggling to confidently claim the label of the successful student I’ve been working so hard to become.

Let’s do the math:

• I’ve restarted UWorld three times, for a total of four passes.
  
• I’ve met with three different academic advisors to reassess my timeline and needs.
  
• I’ve registered for Step 1 twice.
  
• And I’ve cried at least once every week during this year-plus-long study journey.
  

Unlike Lizzo, I don’t feel 100% and I wish I did. I wish I could consistently focus on the progress (however slow it may feel) that is happening.

But here are the facts:

• My UWorld averages have improved with each pass: from 35% on my first pass to 58% on this final one.
  
• Taking practice NBMEs has become second nature. I’ve built routines I trust.
  
• I’m more willing to recognize and internalize the positive things, both in myself and in what others see in me.
  

So here’s the verdict:
Maybe I’ll never feel 100%. But I have put in the work. And hopefully, it will pay off. Plus, Lizzo’s songs are quite catchy and great for a prep exam motivation playlist.